Sunday, June 24, 2007

Understanding Wendy..

Note: Though not regularly, I do get to watch Pinoy Big Brother. I try to watch whatever my siblings watch in order to process these things with them.
Recently, there’s been a big fight among the girls because of the mock nominations. Big Brother tricked them into a “live nomination” where each of the 7 remaining house mates would mention (in front of everyone) who are the 3 that don’t deserve to make it to the Big 4. To make the long story short, there has been a lot of public attention on the recent rage of Wendy, who did not take the nomination well. Inasmuch as I would love to hate Wendy for her actions, I cannot condemn Wendy, I only condemn her actions. She’s human after all. I may not agree with her, but the least I can do is understand her.
What happened?
She felt betrayed that Bea and Gee-Ann both thought she didn’t deserve to be in the Big 4. She felt crushed by the idea that people who love her would actually nominate her. For what reason? Because Wendy was already evicted and now she’s back through one of Big Brother’s Balik-Bahay gimmick. So Wendy’s anger got overblown as she started to accuse the two girls of being plastic. She accused them of being two goody-goody house mates. She claimed they hated her. She started thinking that these two are really mean girls who are strategizing in the house. She bullied them in order to provoke their anger by calling them names, lashing out hurtful comments in front of other house mates, and accusing them of being insincere when they did not respond negatively to her antics. Wendy proudly defended her actions by saying, “okay lang na masama ako, basta ako, nagpapakatotoo.” [It’s okay to be bad as long as I know I’m sincere.]
[Note to reader: if you wish to skip the commentary on Wendy’s problematic beliefs just scroll down and read “Where do all these problems come from?”]
Wendy’s “Love = No Nomination” theory
Wendy felt betrayed that the two girls nominated her. She could not believe that these two girls would treat her with affection and at the same time nominate her. How could someone who loves me, nominate me? It was an enigma. But in that same nomination, Wendy herself told her good friend, “I love you Bodie,” and she nominated him. He felt hurt and cried, just as she did, but Bodie moved on. Wendy held the grudge. Of course, it’s all a game. “Walang personalan, walang galit-galitan after nito,” the irony is that Wendy was the one who uttered that right before the nomination. In an attempt to make her understand her own inconsistency Mickey specifically pointed out her nomination of Bodie, but Wendy simply replied, “it’s different.”
Wendy’s self-contradicting notion of trust
Wendy believed that the two girls are liars and are only pretending. Her reason is that Gee-Ann and Bea know that they are on national television. Therefore, they are trying to maintain their image. This is why she would not agree with a reconciliation inside the PBB House. She wants to see them outside, the “real” them. The problem with this reasoning is that each house mate is aware that he/she is on national television. Thus, everyone is a potential faker. Why does Wendy distrust only Gee-Ann and Bea? Why doesn’t she distrust Bruce (her lover?), who has lied to everyone about not having a girl friend to begin with? How do we know that Wendy herself if not a faker? If Wendy tells everyone that she’s real and expects others to believe it, why does she not do the same to others?
Wendy’s understanding of human nature ~ pagpapakatotoo
As mentioned earlier, Wendy bullied the girls in the hope that they will get annoyed an unleash their hidden beast. (Wendy thinks people are naturally evil, I will explain this later on) Because both did not tolerate her, she believed they were not real. I think Wendy could not come to grasp with the reality that both girls are not like her. Bea and Gee-Ann are both non-confrontational characters. Bea is a natural pacifist while Gee-Ann is naturally passive. Bea does not let these things affect her while Gee-Ann would rather be a martyr because of her weak personality. Wendy exclaims, “Wala namang perpekto!” True, that’s why Bea and Gee-Ann both have their shortcomings: the former is aloof while the latter is a pessimist. I find it strange that she faults the other girls for being more patient than she is. Come on, there are many people who are, yes, not perfect, but undeniably more good-natured than the rest of us. Should we blame them for having greater control of their emotions?
(23 June 2007) I just wanted to add something that Grieckojohn said in his comment: “Kaplastikan ba ang magtago ng nararamdaman? I think you’ll say yes. But what if those persons just hide and try to control their emotions considering that they don’t wanna hurt somebody? Would that be the so-called “kaplastikan”? What if they’re just by-nature passive persons? or just silent yet observing and analyzing what’s happening before taking actions? Pagiging totoo does not necessarily mean boasting what you feel, what you think. What if they’re saying foul/mean words which destruct someone’s dignity and person as a whole?”
There’s nothing admirable in being sincerely disrespectful. “Okay lang na masama ako, basta ako, nagpapakatotoo.” [It’s okay to be bad as long as I know I’m sincere.] What’s the merit of being sincere there? If that’s the case, then we should honor all the murderers, kidnappers, carnappers, and thieves who have committed their crimes with pride.
Where do all of these problems come from?
A History of Hardships
Her mother would beat her up. Her father was a drunkard who abandoned his family and showed up only when he needed money.
On father’s day Wendy cried for feeling betrayed after the nominations and in the bedroom she revealed something important in understanding her personality: “masama akong tao, kaya yung mga taong mahal ko hindi ako kayang mahalin… it’s not hard for me to know people don’t love me, even if I love them; because my father didn’t love me, even if I loved him.”
Also recall that Wendy’s past boyfriend, Alex, only told her recently that he is already married. So all the time they were together, Alex had been deceiving her.
Wendy is the breadwinner of her large family. I actually admire her for all her efforts to be a provider for her siblings: She has joined dozens of contests, bagging the Ms. Tourism award in Binibining Pilipinas, and landing as a semi-finalist at Pinoy Dream Academy. She has also appeared in TV Commercials. But that is not enough: the huge demand of her many siblings still make them residents of a squatters’ area in Navotas.
The Question of Trust
All these encounters with hardships, and failed relationships– by failed relationships I refer to those where she deserves to be loved yet remained unloved– have caused her general attitude of doubt. Wendy cannot come to terms with the reality that people truly love her because the very people who were supposed to love her (her parents) deprived her of that love. In this way she feels betrayed. Because of this, she sees people in general as potential traitors. And the Big Brother House’s artificial set-up gives her more reasons to believe that people are showing affection out of strategy.
What It Means to Be Human
Her experiences with injustice and deception has made her believe that when people are real or nagpapakatotoo, they are angry irritable creatures. Deep inside, people must be intrinsically evil. This is why Wendy insists that she herself is a “masamang tao.” Perhaps she has subconsciously concluded that all people are evil. They tend to hurt and deceive. This is because the people who have surrounded her have done so. And seeing this capacity in herself justifies this all the more. There is a bad side to human beings that the good side can never overcome. That’s the reality of human nature according to this view. People appear good, but one day, they will hurt her… just as those she loved did.
Justified? Not Quite.
Understanding Wendy doesn’t justify her misbehavior. She is responsible for her own actions. Upbringing and harsh life experiences do not excuse a person from being accountable for his/her own offenses. Otherwise, we should free all the prisoners who have been influenced by past sufferings. No, it doesn’t work that way. Conversely, another’s misbehavior does not justify our lack of respect for that person. I will not scorn them because they, too, are children of God. I am not obliged to like them, but I have to understand them. My gosh, in how many forums & blogs have I read, “Wendemonyo, mamatay ka na!!!” She deserves some respect!
Hope for Healing
I have reasons to believe Wendy has yet to experience real love. Not “love” because she is beautiful, nor because she is the family financier, nor because she is the poster girl for pagpapakatotoo. Not even because she has good qualities. When she entered Big Brother’s house, Wendy said, “sana magustuhan ako ng tao.” Well, that’s all that Wendy wants and needs: the genuine experience of being loved for who she is.
Although I want Wendy to win the money and the house & lot (for the sake of her family), I am not rooting her because she does not have the qualities of what I think a Big Winner should be. After all, Pinoy Big Brother is not a charity contest! But I include Wendy in my prayers: may she find light, strength, peace, and most of all, love.
(Of course, I’m also hoping she gets to guest in “Kapamilya Deal or No Deal” and win at least 1 million!)

236 comments:

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トゥイッター said...

最近、話題のトゥイッターから始まる理想の関係…理想の恋をこの場で見つけていきませんか

スタービーチ said...

スタービーチは誰にでも出逢いという奇跡をもたらしてくれる。スタビで理想の関係作りしてみませんか

名言チェッカー said...

自分の名言を一つは残しませんか、しかし考えると意外と難しい。そんな時に名言チェッカーならあなたの本当の性格を見抜けちゃいます。世界の偉人達が残した名言にはどことなく重みがあるものです

日本ダービー said...

第77回 日本ダービー 2010 予想、オッズ、厳選買い目は?今年の波乱をズバリ!確勝買い目公開中!結果を出す前に結果がまるわかり

スタービーチ said...

スタービーチから始まる新たな恋をしませんか?スタビ掲示板を利用して新たな恋をしていきましょう

日本ダービー said...

第77回 日本ダービー 2010 予想、オッズ、厳選買い目は?人気が平然と馬券に絡む理由とは!?見事に展開を読んで結果を的中させる

出会い said...

エロセレブとの出会いを完全無料でご提供します。逆援助で高額報酬をゲットしよう

モバゲー said...

モバゲータウンでいろんな異性と交流を深めあいませんか。異性に対して経験がない方でも簡単にお楽しみいただける、シンプルかつ効率的に優れているサイトとなっています

ツイッター said...

全世界で大ブームを巻き起こしているツイッター!!それを利用して今まで経験したことがないような恋を経験してみませんか

安田記念 said...

第60回 安田記念 2010 予想 オッズ 出走馬 枠順で万馬券をズバリ的中!絶対なるデータが確実に当てるための秘訣

スタービーチ said...

スタービーチで素敵な愛を掴みませんか?愛に対する理想や想いを現実にしていきましょう

モバゲー said...

モバゲータウンでは今までとは一味違う出逢いを体験する事ができるのです。これまで良い出逢いがなかった人にはもってこいの無料登録型の掲示板です

ゲーマーチェッカー said...

ゲーマー達のステイタス、ゲーマーチェッカーであなたのゲーマー度数を測定!!測定結果を元に自分と同レベルのオンライン対戦も出来ます。ゲームが得意な人もそうでない人もどちらも楽しめますよ

出会い said...

エロセレブとの出会いを完全無料でご提供します。逆援助で高額報酬をゲットしよう

スタービーチ said...

スタービーチがどこのサイトよりも遊べる確率は高いんです。登録無料で新しい恋をGETしてみませんか

出会い said...

一流セレブたちが出会いを求めて集まっています。彼女たちからの逆援助でリッチな生活を楽しみましょう

SM度チェッカー said...

最近普通のプレイに物足りなさを感じているそこのアナタ、ワンランク上のプレイをしてみませんか?そんな時の目安にSM度チェッカーを使うんです。自分の深層心理を暴きパートナーとのプレイ時のアドバイスも付きますよ!!一度どうですか

mコミュ said...

素敵な出 会 いで愛を育む♪理想の人と楽しめる関係を築きませんか?mコミュでしか味わえない幸せを掴みましょう

スタービーチ said...

スタービーチで会える!?理想の異性をGETしよう☆素敵な出会いばかりだから求めている関係も作りやすい!!貴方が求めているのはどういった恋ですか?

名言チェッカー said...

他の人が言ってる名言や格言って良い事言ってるな~とか思ってる方、名言チェッカーで今日から自分に相応しい言葉を見つけませんか!!これでどんな人にも一目置かれる存在に為れますよ

mixi said...

mixiをも凌駕する出会い率!!出会いをするならここしかない♪mixiより出会えてしまうこのサイト。一度ハマれば辞めれません。スタービーチで素敵な出会いをしちゃいましょう

モバゲー said...

モバゲーで出会いをすれば楽しい事は間違いありません。暑いからこそ出会いを楽しむべきなのです。登録無料で簡単に利用可能!

モバゲータウン said...

モバゲータウンでは恋愛から出合いまでのキッカケをつかめる無料のコミュニティサイトです。常時サポートスタッフが掲示板をチェック、サクラや業者を排除しておりますので安心してご利用いただけます

スタビ said...

スタビが今一番アツイのはご存じでしょうか?夏休みで出会いを探している娘とすぐに会えちゃうんです。登録無料でここまで出会える所は他には存在しません。今登録して良いパートナーに巡り合おう

スタービーチ said...

出会いのシーズン、夏到来!スタービーチでご近所さんと知り合っちゃおう!ひと夏の体験も女の子は求めている

モバゲー said...

モバゲーでついに出会いができる!?楽しめる出会い、求めていた出会いはココから始まる。素敵な出会いでまずは関係づくりwしていきましょう

gree said...

greeで素敵な時間を過ごしたい・・・そんな願望を叶えてくれるサイト誕生!!今までにないドキドキ感と興奮をこのグリーで楽しみましょう

スタビ said...

スタビで出会いができる!!いつでもどこでも出会いが可能なスタービーチで最高の出会いをしてみませんか

mコミュ said...

簡単な出逢いはココでできる☆素敵な出逢いをmコミュで体験していきませんか?楽しめる出逢いを経験するならここしかない!!まずはお試しを

ツイッター said...

新時代突入!ツイッターで始まる出逢い…ここでしかできない出逢いが新しい風を巻き起こす!!素敵な巡りあわせを体験していこう!

SMチェッカー said...

あなたの秘められたSM度がわかるSMチェッカー!簡単な質問に答えるだけで自分の隠された部分が分かります!みんなで試してみよう

モバゲー said...

今やモバゲーは押しも押されもせぬ人気SNS!当然出 会いを求めてる人も多い!そこで男女が出 逢えるコミュニティーが誕生!ここなら友達、恋人が簡単にできちゃいますよ

モバゲー said...

もう夏休みも終わりに近づき、この夏最後の思い出を作りたいと焦ってる方が、モバゲーのコミュニティーに書かれてましたよ!!折角なんで夏の思い出作りに協力して自分も美味しい思いをしてみるのはどうですか?大手スポンサーサイトが付いてるので全部タダですよ

グリー said...

最近はどこのSNSサイトも規制ばっかりで、ちょっと出 合いに関して書き込みするとアク禁食らうけど、夏休み終盤に差し掛かり色々なサイトを調べた結果、グリーだけはどうも規制が緩んでるみたいです。今がチャンスの時期ですよ

ツイッター said...

ツイッターで出 合 いを求めるのです。気の合う異性と交流して楽しいひと時をお過ごしください。登録無料で使えるので気軽さは100点満点!

モテる度チェッカー said...

夏休みももう終わりに近づきこのまま一人は寂しいのちがう?そこでモテる度チェッカーを使い自分がなぜモテないか診断してもらいましょう。10~20代の女性アドバイザーが多数在籍してるので、アドバイスを参考に夏終盤を楽しもう

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